2025 Self Questions (so far)
I copied and pasted all of my diary and dream entries into Clive Thompson’s only the questions online tool and extracted this year’s questions.
JANUARY
Why is the majority of my awareness anchored here? Does matter and touch and do physical objects exist in higher octave dimensions? What was my intention before the womb?
FEBRUARY
(As I’m writing this I’m think of my brother Steven and the life space I had not having him here) Am I processing this for my mother? What kind of love is this? What is the lesson here?
MARCH
An image of the matrix, the angel in the grid box with the world below her and a banana? Are these sacred geometries? This is in the future isn’t it? Trust? What next? Deviate? Why is love a trap? She came in to the private bedroom and she was so beautiful and I asked, Am I as beautiful as you?
APRIL
It’s so simple: just ask yourself is this love? What parts of myself would I like to feed the world? What is the highest perspective I can have? What can I do up there that I can’t do down here? What is this need to be loved by another human? Where is my higher consciousness? Like a cartel but maybe a reality cartel?
MAY
“When was it ever nice?” Is this my heart? And I say back: “If you don’t let consciousness teach you about itself who else will?”
JUNE
The Lochness Monster rises from the lake and I asked it “Where have you been? I feel like the question here is “what beauty within us do we hide from ourselves and the world?” I whisper in his ear: Can we stay like this forever? Why do I continue to forget I have an abundance of mothers who love me?
JULY
Cosmic question for Mother Earth and the evolutionary of braid time re: the energy of No (contraction and deflection and or divergence in evolution — are those all related) What part does NO energy play in evolution? Is there a pick and choose or rejection process during the metamorphosis? What the hell kind of sacred ceremony is this? What would you do if you were dancing with the rainbow? How do I protect against a flood of consciousness?
AUGUST
What does it mean to show up in full life force and not shrink back? What does it mean to consume knowledge and not share it? I wondered why is this a “ghost” story? … and so I said to one of the babies, “all babies are pure and perfect though right?”
SEPTEMBER
When will the seeding end I ask?
All of my self-questions from 2022 so far
I copied and pasted all of my diary and dream entries into Clive Thompson’s only the questions online tool. Questions propel and expand your consciousness. Master the art of asking yourself questions.
What are the next god/guide posts? What did I learn in that lifetime and how can I bring that here? How to merge dimensions? What portal am I creating? What form are you holding now? Where is the rest of me? What is my soul reaching out toward? Am I still a stranger to myself? Why does love do this? Was that unkind? What are the consequences of love? Can my heart be boundless? Why does it hurt? Will there be love? Who is guiding me? Am I pure? What is this wilderness inside of me? What does a new beginning mean to me? What is true freedom? Who should I confess my sins to? Or can I have sovereignty over my heart, mind, body and spirit? Can I be absolved or is the freedom from needing to be absolved more than enough? Whose rules am I living by? What is worth fighting for? Is this a mistake? When is the next moon phase? He is still on the first rung of the ladder and where am I? Why do I have to get my footing again and again and again? Why can’t I start from where I was last time? Are you a comet or are you a planet? Is there anything you've been working on for many centuries? Do I have a stupid heart? What is the one thing I can control? What have we unearthed here? What kind of worship is this? What was the whale I threw out the window? How many times can I transform before I die? What is the difference between human love and divine love? How do you pray to a dead God?
Choosing your form and Whale wisdom
From my dream book, A New Temple
In the last two psychedelic journeys (October 29, 2021 and January 8, 2022), the cosmic whales popped in. I resurfaced from the October journey with the ability to breathe deeper than I had before. They said this was important. The breath is a tool for rebirth.
Last month, I found myself with them again. The whales said, Look at your form. You choose the form you hold here on Earth.
Psychedelic journeys — like dreams and waking visions — are a gift. How you honor them is by action. I googled “whale breathing” and “whale messages.” I discovered a whole subculture of (mostly) women who swim with whales. Some of them have direct channels of communication with whales and can receive transmissions of wisdom.
I followed the path presented to me and I signed up for WhaleBreathing zoom sessions and began reading the book: Whale Wisdom Dolphin Joy: Ascension Teachings from the Cetaceans by June Sananjaleen Hughes.
The WhaleBreathing classes left me in an altered state. Euphoric. Like mini-journeys. I breathe deeper now. My breath is an anchor in the sea of my subconscious. It is a gift and a tool.
Regarding “the form we hold here on Earth” — I found clarity in the book:
…the Whales you see, are ever at this point of integration between the dimensions. Their physical body resides in the world of form, but their consciousness remains aware of their spiritual existence, their spirituality … They hold the balance between the dimensions, a statement you find hard to follow ~ but without the Whales the seas would be in chaos. And the seas represent the subconscious, that hidden and little understood part of your mind that dwells within your rhythm of awareness. … The Whales are at peace. Oblivious to outside interference, they live their dream in the ocean depths. They experience the turmoil, the turbulence, the inharmonious frequencies of the outer world, oh yes. But they allow it not to penetrate their inner being, their inner calm, the heart of their awareness. Their centeredness, or point of focus. Were they to allow the discord of an outer or alien world to penetrate their own, they would disintegrate, their form dispelled, annihilated by thought patterns of aggressiveness. The waves of calamitous sound would shatter their form. For their form is held in shape by a frequency that borders on Divine. Angelic perhaps would be more to your understanding. At any rate, there is a very fine frequency that holds their shape in form. And they have learned to hold fast to their ideal or focus that All is One, that they are not separate from the whole, from the Godhead, from the Source. And we encourage you and your cohorts to emulate the Whales, to practice steadfastness in holding true to a thought or pattern that is Divine in origin. Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all else shall follow. And it is for you to determine what is meant by kingdom of heaven. A State of Grace maybe. An elevated concept of consciousness, in which you may hold or carry your tune of intent with dedication and commitment to purpose. And here we are assuming that your purpose is the divine blueprint that you drew for yourselves, before you entered embodiment. Be like the Whales and allow nothing external to detract from this purpose. Insulate yourself. Pad your aura with an extra wad of good humor, of joie de vivre, of tolerance and respect. Glue it all together with the love of understanding, and wear this armor amour on all occasions….
I see whales now as satellites — spaceships in the sea. Divine consciousness. Something to emulate.
Answer all your self questions or else they float there like your lost bodies
The younger version of me could not be pulled through the dimension. Her skeletal frame was frozen and split and hanging from a branch. Her consciousness could not translate. I was sad but I accepted it. What else could I do? Answer the question, they say. Answer all your self questions or else they float there like your lost bodies. The girl drops from the tree as an egg 🥚. I bend in between the worlds to pick myself up. The egg is glowing. Obviously I’m fertile. A man is speaking on a PA system. I only hear the words … “Come be …. Your future is bright.”
A perfect question to wake up to:
So—what do you want? Not just today, or at this moment, but within the arc of your existence?
— Mitch Horowitz, The Miracle Habits